One thing I’ll tell you now if you’re considering IVF is that it’s very difficult to have a normal life at the same time. That’s because you pretty much have to be available for appointments at any time, any day, for 2 weeks or more. And even if you have a schedule for appointments, and procedure dates, its all subject to change, as I found out this week when they moved my retrieval date up by two days!

So after a long day of driving to castle rock and back first thing in the morning, a full day of work, I set 2 alarms for awful o’clock in the morning to give myself my trigger shots.

So you wake up from your peaceful slumber, you pull the syringes out of the fridge and let them warm up until the exact trigger time (1:45am for me this time) You then inject your triggers in rapid succession, Lupron in the stomach, HCG in the bum.

What the triggers do is basically tell your body, okay, finish cooking those eggs and get them all ready for ovulation. So it helps them mature and get ready for the egg retrieval which happens 36 hours later.

After trigger time I attempted to go back to sleep, woke up, drove to CO springs for my pre-op appointment, drove back to Boulder to get in half day’s work, went to your acupuncture and enjoy a lovely relaxing hour of positive thinking, enjoy dinner with friends, attend a friend’s delightful classical piano recital, and drive back to CO springs for the night.

While it’s been a whirlwind, it’s also been a really peaceful day and I feel calm going into our retrieval tomorrow. I’m hopeful for it to work this time, but prepared for if it doesn’t.

Ultimately, I have to trust. Trust my nurses, my doctor, trust the process. But more than anything, trust God. Trust that he sees my heart, and He is faithful. And trust that no matter the outcome, Christ is enough for me.