I need to apologize to you. I’ve been silent on this blog for a season. A four month season to be exact. On some days I would have told you it was intentional, I needed time out of the spotlight. While that’s possibly true, I think the larger issue keeping me silent was my shame.… Read More of silence & shame

We’ve all been there right? Smack in the middle of a hard situation and in swans (usually well meaning) advice givers. It usually starts with “Well at least…” or “You should try…” And it’s just the worst. But a lot of us are guilty of this, myself included. I told you in my last post… Read More of good advice

I have a problem with patience. I admit it, freely. I don’t like waiting in line, I can’t stand slow sidewalk walkers, and I don’t know how many licks it takes to get to the center of a tootsie pop, and can pretty assuredly say I never will. I’ve always seen this as a bi-product… Read More of grace & goodness

I’m not gonna lie, I was happy to flip my calendar over from March to April. Every little handwritten note throughout the month was something I’d rather forget, March 7 – Take pregnancy test (it was negative) March 12 – Buy more tests (they were positive!) March 13, 15, 17, 24, 31 all Dr.’s appointments, the first… Read More of spilled coffee

I have to confess something. After I shared my last post, I felt like I had this transparency thing down, this wasn’t so scary after all, I got this, and then God decided to turn my world upside down. You see, after my test was negative last week,  I still had some weird symptoms I… Read More of pain & peace

I like to fix things. The second something goes sideways I like nothing more than to pull out my phone/map/barometer/laptop/geiger counter and go to work. (im clearly just kidding on a couple of those, if you ever find yourself needing a geiger counter you have serious problems my friend, get to a doctor asap).  But… Read More of mourning & making plans

As a child, you think anyone over the age of 20 is just ancient, 30s you should be getting ready to retire, and 40s is basically one foot in the grave. I turn 35 this year. This is something I haven’t wanted to think about or even acknowledge in the safe confines of my own… Read More of finding your voice

I was driving west, back from a lunch meeting in the nearby town of Erie to my office in Boulder, overwhelmed with news upon news of ongoing political shenanigans drifting through my radio, I looked up and directly in front of me saw for the thousandth time majestic snow capped mountains rising up from behind… Read More of mountains and men

As we move into a fresh new year, I’m acutely aware of good intentions and the frustrations we feel when things don’t go to plan. Part of the frustration comes from a feeling of wasting time, or not accomplishing what we wanted when we wanted it by. I’m so painfully aware of the passing of… Read More of good intentions